Avoidance
I have one headphone in at all time
And noise
And music
And talking
And laughing
Oblivion, my
personal oblivion
absention from self
waive my consciousness
cede from being
just enough
for sterility
seeking my apocalypse
in spiraling recreation
and I always have my phone with me
three screens
three blue-harsh lights
each one semi-forgotten
until distraction pause
All thought patterns
broken by diversion
and all anxiety
all fear
all intimate disorder
dissipate
into frenzied relief
Hell, I don't know what I'd do without them
a florescent flood
pushes out every thing
the rush of noise consumes
stimulant indulgent
escapist annihilation
ruinous absolution
rapturous dissolution
a desperate supplication
to extinguish sentience
diode-sight and
wire-nerves
grant me liberation
from personhood
And noise
And music
And talking
And laughing
Oblivion, my
personal oblivion
absention from self
waive my consciousness
cede from being
just enough
for sterility
seeking my apocalypse
in spiraling recreation
and I always have my phone with me
three screens
three blue-harsh lights
each one semi-forgotten
until distraction pause
All thought patterns
broken by diversion
and all anxiety
all fear
all intimate disorder
dissipate
into frenzied relief
Hell, I don't know what I'd do without them
a florescent flood
pushes out every thing
the rush of noise consumes
stimulant indulgent
escapist annihilation
ruinous absolution
rapturous dissolution
a desperate supplication
to extinguish sentience
diode-sight and
wire-nerves
grant me liberation
from personhood
10/19/2023